oooh I just couldnt resist
Going natural was the best thing I could have done.
1. It helped me to embrace and accept what grew out of my head.
2. It purged me of the "good hair" " bad hair" syndrome that so many of us suffered from
3. For me I think something spiritual happened as well. Not spiritual in the religious sense. More ethereal maybe. The best way I can describe it is the moment it happened. I was washing my hair in the shower. I had just cut off the last of my perm. My hair was quite long. I remember running my fingers through my coils and curls and thinking.."this is....me!"
I felt like I had come to some new level of self acceptance.
Before I went natural, my natural texture was something to chase away. It was bad and unwanted. After I went natural, my hair became more a part of me. When I finally decided to go back to perming, the choice had nothing to do with how I felt about my hair. I loved the natural styles, but unlike a lot of my friends who went natural, it was actually harder to take care of for me.
I've got a lot of hair (the reason why my current crisis is so hard for me) so dealing with it took more effort than I wanted to put out. Also, styles just didn't stay neat long enough to be practical. And while the natural styles appealed to my creative and afrocentric side, I realized that I didn't want to wear those styles
all the time. Also i realized I really love long straight hair. I don't think curly, coily, kinky hair is bad, I just love the look of long straight hair. I felt I had come to the point where I could separate those two concepts and not get caught up into the "self hatred" trap. And I didn't.
Some days, (like recently)
I miss my natural hair so much I ache. But then I think about all that comes along with it and the ache goes away. Plus my hair is growing very nicely and if I feel i really need to have natural styles I can still get most of them.
to each her own