seraphim712
Well-Known Member
I just found out last night that my mother was diagnosed with type 4 cancer; the doctors are giving her a month or less to live. The cancer has spread to her liver, pancreas and bones. I don't know what to do, I'm just terrified as this is very sudden and very unexpected. know that this is normally the final stage before the body succumbs to the disease. Back in 2008 my mom was diagnosed with colon cancer in which the doctors did a successful operation and removed the tumor. The doctors mentioned to her back then about two spots they discovered on her liver, however no biopsy or further treatment was done to make sure if everything was fine. I believe there were metastatic cells that attached to her liver and eventually invaded vital parts of her body over time.
It's gotten to the point that my mom is paralyzed in both of her legs due to a lesion on her spine, and she also has a fracture on her leg (I think both have to do with her falling due to her legs giving out or the cancer pressing against her bones from what I've researched.) My older siblings seem to have throw in the towel and are ready to put her in a hospice without option of a biopsy to see what type of cancer she has. I know right now the best thing is to be happy around her and talk to her as much as I can, but it's so hard to do, it's easier said than done. Especially when it seems that my elder siblings are just fighting with each other more than they are trying to help her fight this.
It feels like a bad dream, I've been kept in the dark about my mom's condition for a while. Once I found out, I've been crying on and off nonstop. I'm tired, I've been going to bed a nervous wreck and every time my cell phone rings I freak out. It's only been one day but it feels like a long week has passed. I know I must face the truth that my mom may not have long to live and that she can go at any moment, but how can I come to terms with that?
Images of my mom in a casket keep floating around in my head and they won't go away. I just want it to stop.
It's gotten to the point that my mom is paralyzed in both of her legs due to a lesion on her spine, and she also has a fracture on her leg (I think both have to do with her falling due to her legs giving out or the cancer pressing against her bones from what I've researched.) My older siblings seem to have throw in the towel and are ready to put her in a hospice without option of a biopsy to see what type of cancer she has. I know right now the best thing is to be happy around her and talk to her as much as I can, but it's so hard to do, it's easier said than done. Especially when it seems that my elder siblings are just fighting with each other more than they are trying to help her fight this.
It feels like a bad dream, I've been kept in the dark about my mom's condition for a while. Once I found out, I've been crying on and off nonstop. I'm tired, I've been going to bed a nervous wreck and every time my cell phone rings I freak out. It's only been one day but it feels like a long week has passed. I know I must face the truth that my mom may not have long to live and that she can go at any moment, but how can I come to terms with that?
Images of my mom in a casket keep floating around in my head and they won't go away. I just want it to stop.
It's okay, Babygirl...
