LocksOfLuV
New Member
Hey Ladies,
I have a few thoughts and concerns that I think you may be able to give me some assistance on. I don't know if this is a spiritual thing or even a psychological thing, but I will take a stab at it.
A little background first. My brother died 11 mos ago on New Year's day. He was shot to death, and even after his death I questioned where he 'went after death' seeing as he did not live a 'saved' lifestyle. But he was a EXTREMELY good-hearted man. Just did some wrong things in his life, which made me unsure.
Since his death, I have been afraid to pray at night. I usually say my little short (thank you) prayers during the day but since his death, I have to get myself drowsy with the television on to feel comfy enough to even go to bed without the TV on. I am afraid that his ghost will come visit me at night, and I know this sounds weird but I am verrrrrry scared of ghosts or demons coming to me.
I am afraid that if I pray at night (in the dark no TV), that ghosts or spirits will enter the room and scare the bejeebus out of me. I am 22 years old and I can't believe this new fear of the dark. I don't know if this is psychological or spiritual, or even 'demonic'. I just hear these stories of ghosts and demons coming to visit people and I think "what if my brother comes to me-and his spirit isn't nec a good one."
How can I overcome this? Last night I tried to break myself from this and pray in the pitch black with no TV on, and I was so scared, I was too scared to even turn on the television. I ended up turning on the television, and falling asleep with it on and woke up out my sleep to turn it off (the television on while I am sleeping also gives me bad dreams too ). Any comments or suggestions? This is really interfering with (what I think) my intimate relationship with GOD. Since I only pray in the daytime with other's around (silent prayers) I feel like my prayers are often kept short or not everything I want to say. Praying outloud? You can forget about that, I am also afraid of that too, I feel as though (as silly as this is) that the evil spirits can hear me too, so I pray silent so GOD can only hear me. Please help and thanks in advance.
I have a few thoughts and concerns that I think you may be able to give me some assistance on. I don't know if this is a spiritual thing or even a psychological thing, but I will take a stab at it.
A little background first. My brother died 11 mos ago on New Year's day. He was shot to death, and even after his death I questioned where he 'went after death' seeing as he did not live a 'saved' lifestyle. But he was a EXTREMELY good-hearted man. Just did some wrong things in his life, which made me unsure.
Since his death, I have been afraid to pray at night. I usually say my little short (thank you) prayers during the day but since his death, I have to get myself drowsy with the television on to feel comfy enough to even go to bed without the TV on. I am afraid that his ghost will come visit me at night, and I know this sounds weird but I am verrrrrry scared of ghosts or demons coming to me.
I am afraid that if I pray at night (in the dark no TV), that ghosts or spirits will enter the room and scare the bejeebus out of me. I am 22 years old and I can't believe this new fear of the dark. I don't know if this is psychological or spiritual, or even 'demonic'. I just hear these stories of ghosts and demons coming to visit people and I think "what if my brother comes to me-and his spirit isn't nec a good one."
How can I overcome this? Last night I tried to break myself from this and pray in the pitch black with no TV on, and I was so scared, I was too scared to even turn on the television. I ended up turning on the television, and falling asleep with it on and woke up out my sleep to turn it off (the television on while I am sleeping also gives me bad dreams too
). Any comments or suggestions? This is really interfering with (what I think) my intimate relationship with GOD. Since I only pray in the daytime with other's around (silent prayers) I feel like my prayers are often kept short or not everything I want to say. Praying outloud? You can forget about that, I am also afraid of that too, I feel as though (as silly as this is) that the evil spirits can hear me too, so I pray silent so GOD can only hear me. Please help and thanks in advance.
