I’m in need of prayer to help me with a situation I’m facing in my life.
I have been with my fiancé for 6 years. June 2004, on a quiet Saturday afternoon we were at my place watching a movie when he got a text message on his phone since I was closer to his phone I picked it up to hand it to him and as I was doing this, he commented†I hope its not the officeâ€, I then clicked his phone to open the message and I started to read it aloud, only it was not his office, it was a love message from a woman, he grabbed the phone from me and we started to argue. I gave him back his ring and asked him to leave.
He kept telling me he did not know who that woman was who sent him a message(yeah right), when he saw that I was not taking him back, he asked me to forgive him and to start a fresh. In July, stupid me went back to him and deep down I did not forgive him though I continued the relationship. I got pregnant in Aug’04, he seemed happy, only to tell me in Nov’04 that he was not sure if the baby was his!!! I mean how cruel is that especially when I went to the doctor with him for the pregnancy test. He changed on me and literally avoided me and did not touch me throughout the rest of my pregnancy. It was at this time that i went to live with my mum. We were just on a hi and bye basis during this time. I heard from his friends, that he was always with different women during this time. He was around when I went into labour but that is only cos my mum called him- I personally did not want him around me. He has been around since then and he is looking after our son. We do not live together.
Forward to Jan 2007. His older sister called us so that she could talk to the two of us. She pleaded with me to give him and the relationship another chance. I agreed that I will try but I’m not making any promises. I wish I had just said that I cannot and do not want to give him a chance because deep down I cannot forgive him. I loved him so much but he shattered me and I never dreamed that I would be alone and pregnant without him being their for me. I know the Christian way is to forgive and I keep reading this verse Colossians3:13, “Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave youâ€
But I find it so hard to forgive him. Has anyone been in such a situation and had the power to forgive?
I have been with my fiancé for 6 years. June 2004, on a quiet Saturday afternoon we were at my place watching a movie when he got a text message on his phone since I was closer to his phone I picked it up to hand it to him and as I was doing this, he commented†I hope its not the officeâ€, I then clicked his phone to open the message and I started to read it aloud, only it was not his office, it was a love message from a woman, he grabbed the phone from me and we started to argue. I gave him back his ring and asked him to leave.
He kept telling me he did not know who that woman was who sent him a message(yeah right), when he saw that I was not taking him back, he asked me to forgive him and to start a fresh. In July, stupid me went back to him and deep down I did not forgive him though I continued the relationship. I got pregnant in Aug’04, he seemed happy, only to tell me in Nov’04 that he was not sure if the baby was his!!! I mean how cruel is that especially when I went to the doctor with him for the pregnancy test. He changed on me and literally avoided me and did not touch me throughout the rest of my pregnancy. It was at this time that i went to live with my mum. We were just on a hi and bye basis during this time. I heard from his friends, that he was always with different women during this time. He was around when I went into labour but that is only cos my mum called him- I personally did not want him around me. He has been around since then and he is looking after our son. We do not live together.
Forward to Jan 2007. His older sister called us so that she could talk to the two of us. She pleaded with me to give him and the relationship another chance. I agreed that I will try but I’m not making any promises. I wish I had just said that I cannot and do not want to give him a chance because deep down I cannot forgive him. I loved him so much but he shattered me and I never dreamed that I would be alone and pregnant without him being their for me. I know the Christian way is to forgive and I keep reading this verse Colossians3:13, “Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave youâ€
But I find it so hard to forgive him. Has anyone been in such a situation and had the power to forgive?
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