Ladies, I'm struggling...

[Mocha5]

I'm in a place that I have never been before. Every bone in my body wants to leave my husband right now. And I mean EVERY bone. I have absolutely no reason for wanting to leave him other than the fact that we've been married for 10+ years, we have a troop of kids and I'm tired. That's it. I love him, he takes excellent care of us, he's funny and sweet. So ummm...what's my problem? Is this a mid-life crisis at 36, an attack from satan or both?

My pastor preached on not allowing satan to move you out of your blessings on Sunday. I shared this with RR. He specifically said, "Those of you who are thinking about leaving your spouses. Don't. The devil loves division. He did it with Adam and Eve and he wants to do it with you too." When I talked to him later he said he couldn't figure out why God had him preaching that. But he advised me that we should come in for counseling. I agreed. I told DH and he agreed. But I don't even wanna go. :spinning::nono::spinning::perplexed

We're going to Chicago for Christmas and I promise yall I feel like not coming back. :ohwell: Please pray for me before I do something foolish that I will regret.

[GodsPromises]

You are in my prayers.

Calling you in a few minutes!!!!

[Nice & Wavy]

I'm in a place that I have never been before. Every bone in my body wants to leave my husband right now. And I mean EVERY bone. I have absolutely no reason for wanting to leave him other than the fact that we've been married for 10+ years, we have a troop of kids and I'm tired. That's it. I love him, he takes excellent care of us, he's funny and sweet. So ummm...what's my problem? Is this a mid-life crisis at 36, an attack from satan or both?

My pastor preached on not allowing satan to move you out of your blessings on Sunday. I shared this with RR. He specifically said, "Those of you who are thinking about leaving your spouses. Don't. The devil loves division. He did it with Adam and Eve and he wants to do it with you too." When I talked to him later he said he couldn't figure out why God had him preaching that. But he advised me that we should come in for counseling. I agreed. I told DH and he agreed. But I don't even wanna go. :spinning::nono::spinning::perplexed

We're going to Chicago for Christmas and I promise yall I feel like not coming back. :ohwell: Please pray for me before I do something foolish that I will regret.

I don't even know what to say:ohwell:

[dlewis]

Mocha, I've been there. Even made an appointment with an attorney. I'm pming you.

[janiebaby]

Mocha5, please don't do something that you probably will regret. You said yourself that he takes excellent care of your family so there is no reason why you should let this negative spirit block your blessing.

[Mocha5]

You are in my prayers.

Calling you in a few minutes!!!!

Sorry I missed it. I was on another call with a friend who was just released from the hospital. I'm good though. Thanks for the prayers and the call. :yep:

[Mocha5]

I don't even know what to say:ohwell:

Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooh, if YOU speechless I'm really scurred! :lachen::lachen::lachen:One for the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit...:lachen:

[Mocha5]

Mocha, I've been there. Even made an
appointment with an attorney. I'm pming you.

Thank you, D. At least I know I'm not absolutely crazy. I don't think. :look:

[Mocha5]

Mocha5, please don't do something that you probably will regret. You said yourself that he takes excellent care of your family so there is no reason why you should let this negative spirit block your blessing.

Yeah, there must be a negative spirit that's trying to attach itself to me. I had an accident the other day too. I need to bind it and cast it out. I probably need to start fasting. Thanks, Janie.

[springbreeze]

Mocha5, please don't do something that you probably will regret. You said yourself that he takes excellent care of your family so there is no reason why you should let this negative spirit block your blessing.

ita...with the bolded

it seems you have more reasons to stay, don't let the
d***l talk you out of your blessing.

[tarheelgurl]

Don't do anything to fast. Take time for yourself one weekend and re-evaluate what you are thinking. You are probably bored and in a rut. You have been blessed and sometimes we take our blessings for granted. Maybe even take up some new hobbies.

(((hugs))) You will get thru this.

[sunnydaze]

Mocha,

You mentioned that you are tired..you may just be temporariy worn down from all the daily responsibilities of being a wife and a mother..it happens. Why not take some time for yourself after the holidays?

[Mocha5]

(((Hugs))) to each of you. I can't seem to find the kissey face smiley. I probably really need some alone time. I am tired. Everyday life can be so suffocating sometimes. I never thought about a new hobby: bellydancing, flower arranging, skydiving...:grin:

[Bubblingbrownshuga]

You will be fine :)

[golden bronze]

Seek God to guide you before you move, and listen for where He is leading you. I know it has to be hard. I love you, and I am sending you prayers.


Be still and know that I am God.

[klb120475]

Mocha I'm praying for you girl! I won't stop praying for you!:hug3:

Don't be moved by emotions....wait and listen for God's voice.

[Shimmie]

Hi Babygirl...:kiss: Come here little sister. I want to tell you something.

Did you really and truly think that this came as a surprise to you? :nono:

Sweet Mocha, you've been growing in the Lord, actually you've had a spiritual growth spurt. And with each measure of spiritual growth comes a 'challenge' attached to it. Yes, my lovely one, a challenge 'attached'.

Mocha, as a minister, you are called to share things that you KNOW from experience how to guide those you are called to minister to. This is NOT about your husband; neither that much about being tired. :nono:

God is preparing you for the next level of ministry that He has called you to. And there is no couch for you to hide behind. None...:nono: Mocha, you have matured to the level where Despite the Odds, Despite your feelings, despite your weariness, God has called to you to 'handle' this correctly and HIS way. Not our way which is being ruled by the flesh and our emotions.

It's not about your husband. It's not about your husband. It's not about your husband....Sweet Mocha, this is not about your husband.

Neither is it about the devil. It's about looking beyond the 'natural' realm and allowing yourself to do what you know is right to do and then REJOICE in it. Asking God to replace your weary feelings with HIS JOY; HIS Peace; HIS Wisdom, HIS marriage healing balm of regeneration.

Mocha, it's time to get past and look past what your feelings have been and allowing the Holy Spirit to flow within. It's time to be as Jesus, who when we were yet in sin, He still chose to STAY and not give up on us. To not forsake the love that He knew He still felt for us, though we were not worthy. For, didn't Jesus show and express His weariness with us, when He said, "How long must I tarry with you...". Yet, He tarried and fulfilled the plan to the very end. How often did God want to give up on us and even called the Children of Isreal, 'as stiff-necked' generation. Yet He did not leave.

The heart of the matter is staying not because you want to, but because you know better. This is what our Spiritual Walk is going to entail. Going past our feelings and doing what we know is right. And you have grown spiritually to do this.

Now doing something for yourself, is fine, so is fasting and prayer, but it still won't address what the real issue is. Leaving your husband and your marriage is not the answer, either; it's actually a compound to your currents feelings. The answer lies within your spiritual growth. It's graduation and promotion time, and God is saying, 'Pass this test'. I know you can and you will, for I am right there to receive you unto myself and comfort you through this entire experience."

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I love you Sweet Mocha....:love3:

ETA: Counseling is necessary, for this allows you to release the emotions attached to your heart and it allows you husband to release himself as well. You need to 'share' so that you can both heal. For you two will always be one. You'll both be :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: again. This time, beyond the flesh. And you will be a testimony unto God.

[Mocha5]

You will be fine :)


Thank you, Bubbling. I'd be even better if I had that hair of yours! :grin:

[Mocha5]

Seek God to guide you before you move, and listen for where He is leading you. I know it has to be hard. I love you, and I am sending you prayers.


Be still and know that I am God.


Thank you, Golden. I love you too. This can be only for a season, right?

[Mocha5]

Mocha I'm praying for you girl! I won't stop praying for you!:hug3:

Don't be moved by emotions....wait and listen for God's voice.

So true. I'm standing!